Hi. Hello. Nice to meet you.
So, no, I did not wake up one morning and suddenly think "I HAVE TO START A BLOG RIGHT NOW." In fact, I never actually saw myself successfully doing this. However, my professor keeps talking about networking and blah, blah, blah.. So I decided to make this. During her lecture. (Shhh, it's okay) The idea is to share my stories and experiences, and hopefully how Jesus has worked through them all. So here we go.
I am 19 years old and I was told 9 months ago that I had a stroke. WHAT? Yeah, I know. That's the same reaction I get from everyone. But, it happened. I have had chronic migraine since I started high school, and of course they sucked, but it was never really thought of as a concern. This past year, my first year at SEMO, I got really sick. My migraines and their symptoms began to take over my life, so I was sent to a neurologist and they told me the news. For most people, this would be damaging. Don't get me wrong, it was. I remember how paralyzed I felt when I hung up the phone with my doctor, and how distant I felt when my best friend in the entire world held me while I was sobbing. I remember sitting in the floor of my room in pure terror when I had to call my parents and tell them what a stranger had just told me. And we can't forget the days I spent after, crying in the shower. However, I had a peace about it.
My life has jumped from one doctor to another since January. I have been to four cities, two states, and had way too many tests done for me to count. But I absolutely love it. I'm not trying to sound like a nut (even though I totally am), but it has given me a new outlook on the way that I handle things in my own life. Think about this with me.. I was told at 19 that I had a stroke. Not just a baby stroke, or a TIA, but a significant event in my life that should have caused problems. You know why it didn't? JESUS.
I look at life from a fresh perspective and it is the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I'm sure we have all heard the "life life like you're dying" or "live like tomorrow will never come." Honestly, this is the best way to live. When doubt starts to creep into my life, I turn it around. When I get flustered and start to forget something, or even have trouble remembering, I think back to "you are here for a purpose." It also has brought a testimony to my life that I would have never expected. It allows you to be open, because why would you want to spend your life being an unopened present? It allows you to accept others, to smile daily, and to meet new people often. It has allowed me to jump out of my comfort zone and connect with people on a deeper level. It has allowed my life as a Christian to be flipped upside down, shaken, and blossom into something beautiful.
THIS is why I started my blog. I have learned countless lessons, and I still learn those lessons daily. But these lessons also come with challenges, and heartache, and loss of friendships. They come with scripture and song lyrics, and the wonderful church families that I get to be a part of. It's a beautiful disaster, and it's perfectly imperfect. But, hey, we're in this thing called life together, right?